Miserable

Yeah, I feel so miserable these days. Don't know why. Liar. I totally understand why I feel this way. Really, this thesis is now feels like killing me. And time, flies soooo soooo fast. I am just tired to chase it. Could you just stop a while and wait for me to think more clearly?

I pray to God to give ease in doing this. I feel like I'm a foolish girl, stupidly rushing myself into these chaotic circumstance while my brain works so slow.... I wish I could be clever in a blink. I know it's impossible, but I really wish. I just want to finish. No, I want to finish with satisfaction. God, please lead me... Amin.

On the other side, I felt super happy today because of my fiancee finally get his dream job. I'm so proud of him, and really happy that we draw the path together. Maybe it sounds greedy, I asks a lot from God to give me a lot of miracles. Thank God, I love you more than anyting. I just try to be a better person, but I'm just a human with much much limitations, only You that do not have limitation. I just pray to you. Thank you Allah for keeping me alive, and giving me this wonderful life, though it's tough.

Yeah, finally I ended up writing a post instead of thesis. Tomorrow I have to finish this mess!!!

For dreams, for the future, for life!!!

(I feel relieve a bit after writing this, osh! Semangat lagi!)

Something about Them

Hello all!

Sudah lama yaa, aku nggak menulis soal cinta-cintaan. Hmm, gara-gara tiba-tiba denger lagunya Adele – Someone Like You, jadi teringat sesuatu. I remember them, who are ever filled my days with love. Ohohoho, santai-santai, even they’re now married, but I’ve been invited kok, so I wasn’t turn up out of the blue uninvited ;D hehehe. I just wanna highlight the part :

“I heard

That your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things

I didn't give to you”

Not to be melancholic, but yup, I think about it. Temanku pernah bilang, “Dia (mantanmu) aja nggak pernah mikirin kamu, why should you?”. Yee, bukan gitu juga sih. Setelah waktu berlalu sekian lama, mengalami banyak hal yang membahagiakan bersama mas Kamen Rider, aku pun berpikir, that I didn’t give them “things” that their wives give to them, begitu pula mereka, they didn’t give me “things” that Kamen Rider can give to me. 

Rasanya kalau begini kok teori “the right man in the right time” itu ada benernya. Eh? Harusnya “the right man in the right place” ya? Hihihi, sorry, aku modif dikit deh...

Tapi iya kan?

Somehow..., aku sekarang merasa lucu, mengingat how devastated I was when I broke up with my last boyfriend. I blamed myself a lot for our separation by blaming them that can’t take me just the way I am. The way I think, the way I behave to them... Salah apaaaa aku ya? Kadang aku mikir apa aku yang terlalu cuek, jarang cemburuan, jarang perhatian, dll bla bla bla... Padahal setelah aku inget-inget lagi, sepertinya sudah aku curahkan segala perhatianku buat mereka sebisaku, but I just wanna looks cool and not easy to get. But see, they left me away...

Now, when I see them with their little families, I know that I can’t give them “things” they wanted but their wives can, as they also can’t give me “things” that Mr. Kamen Rider can give to me.

Dulu, aku nggak bisa menerima kenyataan bahwa sang mas mantan selalu merasa minder dan jealous sama aku. I mean, bukan jeles yang berarti cemburu sama cowok lain yang dekat denganku, tapi beliaunya nggak bisa menerima bahwa ada “sesuatu” dariku yang melebihi dia. Day by day, dia semakin menjauh, mlipir banter dan pergi bersama wanita lain. Whaaat?! Aku sudah bersamanya selama hampir 4 tahun dari masih cupu, dan saat dia sudah keren, perempuan lain enak aja mencuri hatinya. AAAAARRGH! Kesalnya aku waktu itu. Hihihi. And you know what, his wife had relationship with him for 5 years before they got married, a year longer than with me! Itu berarti, dia memang bisa tahan bersamanya, lebih tahan dari bersamaku. Pernah dulu menyesal, aaaah kenapa nggak aku aja yang lama sama dia (fyi, aku jadian dengannya sejak SMP sampai kuliah, waw, masih kecil kaan). He was cute, but now he’s not so cute anymore :p

Another man filled my lovely days after him, and days felt like summer everyday (sumuk?). Hahaha, bukan itu, tapi hari-hari dimana muka terasa panas dan pipi merah merona, jantung berdetak lebih kencang. But I was scared when he asked for commitment... I just felt too young to step on that stage. Merasa masih banyak mimpi yang kugantung di atas awan yang belum sempat kuraih. Kupikir sebuah ikatan akan membuatku terbelenggu dan tidak bisa melangkah. Aku kabur dan meninggalkan dia yang berniat bakal menabrakkan diri ke kereta api kalau aku pergi. Don’t worry, he’s now still alive, has a beautiful wife and cute son, hidup damai bahagia. But maybe, if I stay with him, I can’t be myself today :)

Then there was a boy, I don’t know what to say, maybe the setting was wrong from the first time we started the relationship. Bukan karena aku, for seriously, tapi karena ketidaktahuanku (you can find the full story in my post 3 years ago). And everything seemed so wrong in our relationship. But really, I know this guy is a good person. Buktinya sekarang dia sudah menikah, dengan gadis yang baik pula.

Hmm, not because of this last person I became so devastated after the separation, but because I didn’t know how to fix my broken heart yang hancur berkeping-keping, merasa kenapa selalu akhirnya nggak happy ending seperti itu. Aku hanya kurang sabar buat mengecap rasanya bahagia, padahal bahagia bukan sesuatu yang bisa didapat secara instan, iya kan? Indomie goreng aja butuh direbus dulu 5 menit, ditiriskan, terus dicampur sama bumbunya, baru bisa dimakan dengan nikmat (nggak nyambung! Biarin wek!).

Butuh waktu agak lama, dan pengalaman yang nggak semuanya menyenangkan, buatku move on. Dalam artian disini, kembali ke path yang aku inginkan, menjadi diri sendiri. Tapi kenapa sih move on selalu dihubungkan dengan mendapat pasangan baru, heran aku! Hehehe. Aku pernah membaca (lupa sumbernya), bahwa dengan menjadi diri sendiri dan berusaha menjadi yang terbaik, maka calon pasangan akan datang dengan sendirinya (btw, pake usaha juga kaliii). Dan saya pun memutuskan untuk berusaha menjadi keren, bukan untuk siapa-siapa, tapi diri sendiri. Bermimpi setinggi-tingginya dan berusaha mewujudkannya. 

Sebenernya mungkin bukan karena aku jadi keren yang bikin aku bertemu dengan si Kamen Rider. Tapi dia adalah seseorang yang berusaha untuk selalu mengerti aku, mencintai aku apa adanya dan apa yang melekat padaku, mimpi-mimpi gilaku, orang-orang di sekitarku, hewan-hewan dan benda-benda yang juga di sekitarku. Berusaha membuatku nyaman menjadi diriku sendiri. He is a great man that gives me “things” those guys couldn’t give to me. He deserve for all good compliments from me :) Dan hanya dengan dia, aku pun berusaha untuk tidak selalu looks cool, kadang bisa cemburu, kadang perhatian berlebihan, dan kadang membuat dia marah. I just... being myself. 

In conclusion, aaah... No need to be so sad if someone in the past itu bukan seseorang yang ditakdirkan buatku. I really could not give them “something” they want/need, neither they are. I thank Allah for giving me such a wonderful plot of my life story, with those frustrating twists.

"My salad days, when I was green in judgment"

Cited from "Anthony and Chleopatra" by Shakespeare in SALAD DAYS by Shinobu Inokuma

Hello! Orange Sunshine!

Hello hello hello hello!

Apa kabar semuanya? I am so sorry for long time not post anything in here, a bit busy with many stuffs *cliché! Really, it’s been a long time not having interaction with you guys, in the world of blogging. Hehehe, yeah, after the issue of multiply closure, I never write again for a little bit long time. I even wrote a good bye post! But yeah, I don’t know how long this will continue, since I knew that multiply is still working, I’m glad to write on it again. Feels like going home...

Okay, yesterday I took an afternoon break with one of my bestfriend in here (AIT). I told her that I really envy her photos with the pink flowers near my dorm. Yay! I wanna tell you that these days the flowers bloom beautifully here, and the weather is quite nice also. Ok, once again, quite nice, in spite of the heat that recently comes that makes me sweat a lot.

Today I decide to take a little rest for my mind, that lately become so busy thinking and get kinda frustrate, stuck on my thesis progress. I really don’t know what to do with the data I got from the field. Furthermore, I feel a little lazy, I don’t know why.

Since the weather is very nice, ok, I will try to write a little about myself lately. Actually, I already wrote many drafts to post in this blog, but see, I didn’t feel that it was good, so I just saved them in my files, too shy to post it.

So now, why I’m so busy lately?

Mainly, I wanna finish this master study as soon as possible before May.

Why May?

I wanna get married on May.

Hihihi, so that’s why I become so busy eventhough I had spent almost 4 months in my home country Indonesia. It supposed to be a holiday for me, but most of that time I spent for preparing the wedding, and did data collection for my thesis. And one more thing made my holiday became busier, ehem, I tried to apply a doctoral course. Therefore, beside those entire formal schedules I had managed for wedding and thesis, I also have to prepare the documents and research plan for this. Hooooo… my life seems so complicated :D

But it’s ok, I enjoyed them all.

I wanna explain you a bit how I managed those 3 “babies”.

In fact, I’m not that kind of person that can do multitasking works. I need to focus finishing things one by one. Therefore, that’s what I did.

First time I came back to Indonesia, I just wanted to rest my mind and body after 9 tiring months I spent in Thailand and Japan. The busy 2nd semester (February to May 2012) and intersemester (May to July 2012) really makes my mind so tired. Those classes drove me crazy with the tight schedule and tons of assignments! Even when my family came to Thailand, I still had to finish my assignments, thanks to them that very supportive, they rose up my spirit, and the result of their visit was incredibly amazing… I GOT PERFECT SCORES IN ALL SUBJECTS! Really, I never had it before, it made me can’t believe I could made it!

The most excited thing was I got a chance to visit Japan, particularly Kyoto. Whoaaaa… I, myself, still can’t believe that I could visit my dream-country. I was so happy and excited, eventhough it was in summer, and even worse, in fasting-month Ramadhan, I still excited to visit many interesting places. But ok, formally, I learnt a lot in there, in the frame of my study in disaster management. I wish I can get a chance to go there again, with my family. Amiin.

Then, when I came back to Thailand, I had continuing class of DRC (the same course I took in Japan). This class also interesting, actually, despite I have to commuting everyday from AIT (in Rangsit, 40 km from Bangkok) to Kasetsaart University (in Bangkok), got motion sickness so badly in the bus, and still got a lot of assignments. Heuuuw… But it’s ok, at least I could visit Phuket (I went there by plane, for free!) and many “disaster-related” places in Thailand. You know what, somehow, now I become interested in this kind of place. Hahaha, freak!

On October, I rushed myself to finish my thesis proposal with one motivation: GO HOME SO SOON! I missed my family and hometown a lot. And yes, I made it! 

Came back to Indonesia, to my beloved hometown Yogyakarta particularly, many tasks for wedding preparations were awaited! Hahaha…, really, I just wanted to relax myself for some time, but the to-do-list was so long, so I just got relaxed while do the wedding preparations. 

Wanna know my wedding prep list? Here they are:

1. Fix the wedding ceremony rundown with the organizer. 

Yeah, because I born in Javanese family, the ceremony will be in Javanese tradition, particularly Yogyakarta style. However, my family is actually come from East Java (for wedding they usually use Solo style), but since we live in Yogyakarta, we follow Yogya tradition, fair enough. There are 5 ceremonies will be held: ‘pengajian’ (reading Al Qur’an), ‘siraman’ (shower), 'midodareni' (somekind like bachelorette party), ‘akad nikah’ (Islamic wedding ceremony) and reception.

2. Wedding dresses. 

It must be ‘kebaya’ (traditional Javanese cloth). The surprising fact was… I thought I only have to make 2 dresses (for 2 main ceremonies, ‘akad nikah’ and reception), but in the end, I made 5 kebayas! One for each ceremonies. 

The ‘akad’ dress and reception dress I made in a good wedding dress tailor Mrs. Yustina of Talenta Modiste (as recommended by my bestfriend Che and also the WO). FYR, she made wonderfully beautiful dress in a nice price, I mean, the price is worth it with the dress. 

And the other dresses, I made in Mbak Menik (my driver’s wife), I trust her because usually she made me kebaya in fitted size for me :) Plus, the price is negotiable, hahaha!

3. Invitation.

This is one of the important part of wedding stuffs. My fiancée do the design so nice, and so our taste. Love it a lot! (Sorry, no teaser, hihihi)

The other thing that made me feel so blessed was, when I look for the right printing shop (good result and price), suddenly my bestfriend’s mother (who own a printing shop) offer me to print in her place, with special price. Really, I’m so happy! And looking forward for the result :3

4. Souvenir.

My mother was being soooo sooo complicated for this matter, she had a lot of considerations to decide the souvenir. Unlike me, just looks good in a reasonable price is okay. But finally, after quite long searching, she decided the nicest souvenir for my wedding guest. FYR, I ordered the souvenir from Swan Souvenir, they made cute souvenirs!

5. Bridesmaids and the uniforms.

This one is my thing, as bride-to-be. I will invite my best friends to attend my wedding with uniform. One of my bestfriends, Jayanti, suggested me to choose the different material (usually it is brocade, tulle, or colored plain cloth), then the flowery fabric was chosen to make the bridesmaid uniform. 

6. Prewedding photographs.

Yuhu! I asked one good friend of mine, who is also a good photographer to do it for us. His name is Taruna al Hadiid. He know my taste quite well, and the most important is he can communicate with us well. The price? Friendship price :D hehe!

7. Marriage documents.

It was sooooo complicated, I have to go from one office to another only to get a sign from a certain person. Somehow it took time unnecessarily, because of the complicated procedure and their rubber schedule. Oh my beloved country system…

8. Wedding gifts.

In Indonesian tradition, the groom should give gifts to the bride from head to toe. For the real HEAD TO TOE!! Really, first time I felt uneasy when his family asked me what I want for the gift. I feels so weird as I’m not used to ask many things, even to my family, that much. And when I know that the head-to-toe list is very long, I was shocked. I will let you know the list (it maybe useful for you who wanna get married so soon):

• Clothes (kebaya, special occasion wear, casual wear)
• Body care (soap, shampoo, facial foam, body scrub, body lotion/body butter, body splash, etc)
• Make up (moisturizer, foundation, powder, lipstick, eyeshadow, blush on, eyebrow, eye liner, mascara, etc)
• Foot wears (shoes, etc)
• Bags (casual bag, clutch, etc)
• Underwears (bra, underpants, lingerie)
• Jewelries (ring, earring, bracelet, necklace, etc)
• Perfume
• Foods and fruits (for ceremonial use)
• Prayer tools
• Special request, I asked for a BICYCLE :) hehehe.
• Etc etc

That was on my list, my parents got the longer list, such as the venue (that they already book almost a year ago), the committee members, invited person list, and many more details. Sorry papa mama, I have to leave you many tasks while I’m abroad.

Now, back to Thailand, back to realities and routines. And then, just last week I finally presented my research plan for doctoral course. I was so nervous, but tried to remain calm, and being myself. I don’t know what “sign” they gave to me, because I just saw them always showing the flat face... -__- But I hope I could get the chance, amiiin...

That’s all from me this time. I finally spent my half days writing this. I should continue working on my thesis. The data-vacation is over. Though I am now stuck on it, no matter how difficult it is, I must face it bravely. And kill this laziness!

FOR MAY!

FOR YOU!

FOR US!

FOR THE FUTURE!

GANBATTE!

Happy Birthday

Happy 26th Birthday, Love of my Life...

I knew words are not enough to express all these feelings 
Just wish you for the best

your health

your career

everything

above all, your love

I love you, Sayang

Khlong Luang, February 10th 2013

It’s a Wrap!

Hello friends!!! How are you all? I know that there’s no point to write in here anymore since it will close the social media feature by next month. But okay, I’ll be leaving my ‘home’ with good memories, so this post may be my last post in nekopinku.multiply.com, and I will continue writing on nekopinkonata.blogspot.com. Really, I hate this, say good bye to thing I love so much, writing and sharing stuffs in here with you guys. I also made posterous account, but since I really busy with many things, I had no time to learn how to use it yet, my bad, so sorry. Then, yeah, I have to move on!

Enough with the sad news, nooow... Can you guys guessing what I’m busy on lately? *smiling widely, blushing

Yup, I am now doing my master thesis and preparing my wedding *double blushing

Ahahaha…, rasanya kayak baru aja aku galau karena cinta, eh udah mau kawin aja. Hihihi… mungkin buat kalian udah bukan hal baru lagi aku mengumumkan rencana pernikahanku dengan si kangmas Kamen Rider, dan walaupun undangan belum dibikin, insya Allah it’s official. I really happy to announce this in my last post in here.

Udah sejak berbulan-bulan lalu setelah lamaran (ehem), mama mulai ribet nanyain ini-itu persiapan nikahan. Dan karena saya berada nun jauh di negeri gajah, sempat melanglang ke negeri sakura juga, maka segala hal berakhir dengan “Ya udah nunggu kamu pulang aja”, huft. Then, after months abroad, I’m coming home with many tasks awaited.

Pulang ke Indonesia, rencana mau santai-santai tidur-tiduran sebulan, malah langsung ditodong buat nyiapin ini-itu, mulai dari acara, wedding dresses (do not ever think that in Indonesian wedding we only wear one dress, but many dresses for many different rituals, oh my…), undangan, foto pre wedding, KUA, seserahan, daaaaan lain sebagainya. Rempong jaya!! Tapi aku nikmati aja sih, apa lagi kalo pas nyiapinnya bisa jadi alasan buat melancong ke kota pahlawan, sekalian mbojo (yaaayyy!). Meninggalkan tanah air selama berbulan-bulan rasanya bikin kangen jadi semakin bertumpuk-tumpuk. Pengennya begitu balik Indo yaa tarik tunai deposito kangennya. Tapi apa daya, akhirnya setiap kami ketemu ya isinya nyiapin nikahan. Sometimes I’m afraid that we will be bored of these stuffs and have no time for just enjoy being together.

Nyiapin nikahan, kadang suka bikin perang batin, maunya gini… ortu mintanya gitu. Yaah, bedanya adalah consideration kami nggak sebanyak ortu. Maunya sih yang sederhana, nggak makan banyak biaya, dan acaranya nggak ribet. Tapi jreeeeeng adatnya gini-gitu, pantesnya gini-gitu, dan berujung ya sudaaah, manut aja deh. Hihihi… It feels so funny, not only for me myself, but also for my family. I’m the first daughter, and according to Javanese tradition, the bride’s family has the responsibility to organize the wedding, and this is our first time. So, ribet-ribet yang terjadi kebanyakan disebabkan karena kita nggak pengalaman ngurusin beginian, seringnya cuma dateng kondangan doang sih. Hahaha! Kami berdua (me and Kamen Rider) pun merasa lucu, merasa kayak masih bocah tapi udah minta kawin, padahal udah banyak temen-temen kami yang menikah di usia yang lebih muda dari kami nanti. Rasanya excited banget!

About him…, I think I already wrote a lot about him. After a long journey of finding the one, I think he’s the one I can spend my life with. Although it is not easy, yeah, two people, two heads, se-perfect apa pun pasangan pasti tetep ada kesulitannya, ada bagian nggak cocok – nggak cocoknya. Dan di luar kesibukan menyiapkan tetek bengek detail pernikahan, banyak juga hal-hal yang jadi pikiran. Para ortu, sodara, temen-temen mulai memberi banyaaaaaak banget wejangan ini-itu. Oh God, I wish I had bigger memory capacity, I now feels like a 64MB flash disk that need to be upgraded to 1TB of external hard disk, hahaha, lebay ya.

Marriage is one of the biggest decision I have made in my life. Dan seperti yang pernah kubilang dulu-dulu, banyak hal yang jadi consideration buatku memutuskan menikah dengan seseorang. I, probably, is a ambitious person that want myself to be great, and marriage will probably limit the possibilities in making decisions. We both young, and there are many chances are in front of us. I’m afraid that our decisions will take us apart, or the worst case, separated. I really don’t want it ever happen in our marriage. And many people start to scares me with things like, “Doing PhD requires time that maybe take your time and attention to your family, many of them turned to divorce”. What a sad sad facts being told to me before I even start my own family and chasing dreams. Really, I want to be great but I don’t want to sacrifice my family. Am I too greedy for this?

As I always said, I want to be great together, I want to reach my dreams, and I want to support him to reach his dreams as well. Maybe there will be some limitations for both of us, but I hope our love will bond us together, forever :) Wish us luck in this journey.

And then… yeah…, setelah 4 tahun menumpahkan segala cerita disini, it’s time to say good bye to Multiply. Thanks udah menjadi tempat yang nyaman buatku menumpahkan segala cerita, menjadi saksi bisu perjalanan cintaku yang berliku (halah, ndangndut!), for the friendships I gained during these last 4 years. Really, the last thing is one of the saddest loss caused by this soc-med closure :”( I remember 4 years ago when I got hospitalized, my Multiply friends cheered me up and send me prayers through comments, you know what, I really happy that there’s somebody read my post, and I got happier when you guys respond it. I feel like I got many real friends in here, and because “friends are family you choose”, you become my family also. Since I announced about my wedding to you, you are so invited to come to my wedding. Please still be connected with me in Facebook or Twitter, and take a look on my new page in blogspot (I try to make it as similar as this page).

Now, I officially close this page, so much thanks to all my loyal readers for the appreciation and friendship. I’m very glad that I can tell you this good news for the happy ending of my love story. This is not the end yet as my life still continuing, but at least, this is the end of this blog. Now, I will step in to the new page, new story of my life, many more stories are awaited. Doakan kami (oh, now I start using the word “we” rather than “I”) dapat melalui segalanya dengan baik-baik saja dan bahagia. I will surely missing you…. See you again…. *waving hands.

It’s a wrap!

– THE END –

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Struggling

“Life is struggle”

It’s just an old proverb. But I think about it more these late 3 days…

My cousin passed away yesterday, after struggling 2 days to keep alive. I’m so sad, for sure. Many things come up to my mind since then.

What is life?

Is it so precious?

Why is it so precious?

There’s billion of people exists in this world, and I just ONE of them. Only ONE in billions. And I still don’t know for what purpose I’m still alive until now.

Why I should run a life like this now..., is God wrote it in my fate?

It’s just… beyond my capacity to think.

Sometimes I feel unsatisfied with my life, I want to be more beautiful, be more intelligent, be more fashionable, be richer… and be more in anything. But actually, only being alive is more than enough to be so grateful to God. I can breathe the fresh air for free, drink the water for free (sometimes pay…), and my body still functioning well (eventhough my health is weak…), and many other thing.

Once I got sick couple years ago then survived, it makes me think that God must have reasons for keeping me alive. I’m just a human that have to figure out what is the reason. Doing this, and that, as much as I can. I ever guessed maybe I’m still alive because at that time I haven’t finished my undergrad study. Then I struggled a lot to finish it. And I made it. Gave pride to my parents :)

Then… time passed by, many wonderful things happened in me. One by one, so slowly, required more and more works, never stop. Oh, life seems so tiring, right?

But that was I learned from being alive. No time to stop struggling.

Keep optimistic, never give up. Always thankful to God that giving me such a wonderful gift called LIFE. It’s so precious, at least for myself. I will never stop struggling, until I fulfill Your purpose for keeping me alive…

PS: I pray for departed soul of my cousin, may Allah forgive all your mistakes and bless you. Have a nice journey, dear…

229 blogposts since 2008, it means at least I posted once a week, waaaw...! #proudofmyself 555+++

Japanese Otaku…?

Hahaha… this thing came up when I talked to my Japanese friends about many things I know about Japan, from the language to Jpop musicians to dorama then... to anime. Firstly, they amazed with how I spoke the language (only in very simple sentence) in correct pronunciation, then I admit that I know it all from those bunch of anime, dorama and songs. Then..., “So you’re a Japanese OTAKU”. Dhuaaaar!

I thought that otaku refers to those freaks who always watching anime and socially excluded... Really, I’m not in that level of freakiness, though, yes, I’m also freak :D I can watch 3 to 5 episodes of anime or dorama per day (note: when I don’t have any assignment to be submitted soon ;p), and I had more than 1000 Japanese song mp3s, I ever sing in a Jpop-and-rock-cover-band, and I also cosplayed. Huwooo...

When I posted the pictures I took when I visited Mibudera temple (Shinsengumi Heritage Site) in Facebook, my Japanese friends started to ask me how come I know that place?? It rarely appears in tourism reviews for Kyoto. Yeah, only those who know Shinsengumi, and interested in it will visit that place. And... I think I really freak of Shinsengumi stuffs since I read the manga Kaze Hikaru (author: Watanabe Taeko).

Maybe for some people who didn’t know nor interested in Shinsengumi stuffs, it will be boring to visit the sites. Beside Mibudera temple (former Shinsengumi homebase), there is also Yagi house nearby the temple (place where Shinsengumi first founded). And in the second place..., I have to pay for ticket to get inside the house... only listening storytelling which is, unfortunately, only in Japanese (sweats), cannot take pictures also. But, I felt so happy to get inside. See..., I’m freak!

And then, my freakiness is not stops only in Mibu.

Couple weeks after that, me and Naoya (Japanese) and Chor (Thai) visited Kyoto International Manga Museum. And this museum is really a great place to read mangas and relax. The museum collects manga from all over the world, yeeeah, I found Indonesian mangas too!! They also collect Japanese manga from 1950s (if I’m not mistaken). And the most fascinating is the “Wall of Manga” which allows you to read all of the mangas there (but sorry, mostly in Japanese) and you can read everywhere in the museum. I like to read in the outside of the building, in the front field, because I couldn’t stand with the AC temperature :D hehehe. Besides, in the field, you can freely read with the most comfortable position (you can lay down in the ground for sure). For this time, the three of us became too busy with our own world.

(Chor)

(Naoya)

And lastly, the thing makes me labeled as Japanese otaku was because I saw Rurouni Kenshin movie. Firstly I just asked my Japanese friend, how to watch cinema in Kyoto and where is it. Suddenly one of my Japanese friend, Dohi, kindly offered to accompany me watching. Then the plan was spreaded among the Japanese students, “Atid san I saw you visited Mibudera, you also wanna see Rurouni Kenshin?? You know, I also like Kenshin,” then the conversation gets longer, only talking about Shinsengumi and Kenshin. Hahaha...

(Dohi)

It’s not too bad to become freak. Eventhough I looks too much talking, but actually I’m shy and don’t know what to talk to new friends. So, sometimes my freakiness can break the wall and help me a lot in making friends. Besides, it also take me to many unusual places, for example as I mentioned above, and also new experiences that not all of my friends or even any other visitors in Kyoto did that. Above all, maybe my strong interest about Japan leads me to struggle and pray a lot to get myself there, even only a while. 

And as my friends Kojima and Nagakawa said, nowadays it’s not really bad to be otaku, as long as you still live in the real world. 

Which type are you? ;)

Miburou Hometown - Shinsengumi Historical Site

Finally visit this place! Hihihi...I visited this place alone because maybe this place will be boring, unless you have strong interest in Shinsengumi story. And as for me, beside their story in Rurouni Kenshin (Samurai X), I also follow a manga by Watanabe Taeko titled Kaze Hikaru (Flash of Wind) which the story is more about Shinsengumi, but not seriously historical.

And, after lost in the small street downtown Kyoto, finally I reached Mibudera Temple. And suddenly Shinsengumi atmosphere become strongly felt in this area. Inside the temple area, there graveyard of Shinsengumi. Although it's called "graveyard" but one thing I noticed in here was the aura of those anime lover, especially when I see the ema hanging on there :D hahaha...

From the temple, I stopped by in the house of Yagi Gennojo, a place where Shinsengumi founded. The funny thing is the front man told me that there is nothing inside the house except story telling, and also cannot take pictures, but I still insist to getting in. And yeah, inside is nothing but a house, with story of a famous samurai group called "Shinsengumi" or "Miburou" of "Mibu Wolves".

Yeeeah, anything, but I was so happy I can visit this place, even for some people it might be so boring. Hehehe... It's not really bad to be a bit freak...

… And Everyone’s Happy

Last night I got a message from my ex boyfriend,  a wedding invitation! Agaiiiin??? Hahaaha… Finally, he's getting married! Dan dengan ini, berarti sudah ketiga kalinya aku dilangkahi sama mantan! Hahaha… I really laughed a lot for myself. Bukannya bermaksud berlomba sama mantan, tapi kok ya kebetulan mereka duluan dari aku ya. Tapi wajar juga sih, secara umur mereka sudah lebih tua dari aku.

He, who ever messed up my love life for quite a long time... Yap! Bagi yang ingat dengan postinganku beberapa tahun lalu, ketika duniaku seperti runtuh dan membuatku sulit buat percaya lagi sama cinta. Butuh waktu lama dan proses yang panjang buatku memulihkan semangat untuk bercinta lagi (hayah bahasane :DD). Actually it was not because of him, or his fault that made me so down. But I was too tired to be in love and failed. Why should I love somebody if in the end I will get hurt?

I wrote a lot, think a lot about love and myself, really, I became self-centric at that time. And yeah, time really healed the pain. 

Tiga tahun sudah berlalu, hidup kami pun banyak berubah, in a good way pastinya. Kalau dideskripsikan, saat itu hatiku terkena bencana tsunami, semuanya hancur berantakan tersapu gelombang. Saat gelombang itu pergi, sisa-sisa pondasinya masih tertancap di tanah. Slowly I cleaned up those “disaster debris”, and prepare the land for rebuilding a new nice place for my true love to live in :) 

I’m truly happy with this good news, at least he find a very nice woman to be with, and he also grow become a good man. Me, myself… my life now is really wonderful! I don’t know how much I should thank to God to express how grateful I am being blessed with much love and this great life. Having family and friends who really care to me, a sweet loving boyfriend to be husband, and easier way to reach dreams… 

(Finally my dream to go to Japan came true.... plus, its Kyoto University!)

Aku pernah menulis di posting sebelum-sebelumnya, bukannya dia nggak punya spek bagus buat bersamaku, atau aku nggak punya spek bagus buat bersama dia, tapi memang bukan jodohnya. Ironically, he will be good, if not with me, and me too. But that’s LIFE, isn’t it?

After this…, it will be my turn! I will revenge him with my wedding invitation! Hahaha…

I really thankful to my man Kamen Rider who bravely proposed this complicated daydreamer called myself. With him, I never afraid to dream high and higher, because he’s the one who can walk and run with me to reach them all…

Then… Congratulation! … And everyone’s now happy!