Aaaaaaakkkk!!!
Berapa
kali aku galau berat dalam blog ini?
Kayanya
cuma nulis pas galau aja ya. Hehehehe… gomen ne, habisnya kalo galau di socmed
kok kesannya lebay gimanaaaa gitu. Lagian ini blog sudah jarang ku update,
hikks…
Oke,tanggal
berapa sekarang?
17
April 2015
eh?
Sudah April lagi? Sudah tahun 2015??
So,
I’ve been thinking… I already 1.5 year in here… I am now in 2nd
year… 2nd semester of my study. My study. Caps locked, MY STUDY.
Jreng jreeeeng!
You
know what?
Somehow,
I still can’t believe that I am on this stage… being a doctoral student. I was
a very ordinary student when I was in undergrad, I was also not an outstanding
student among the other students in master. I just a lucky student.
So,
with no knowledge of being doctoral student, I just doing this and that related
to my current research… progressing as slow as snail… keep on busying my head
thinking about research and stuffs, and baby, and house works and traveling (I
try to do it as much as I can, even though it is not really much, actually).
Then,
suddenly I realize that things become more complicated. I should not be just
doing what I’m doing now…, should be more, deeper, faster… So now I try to
adjust myself with it. Sometimes, or always, I need something to waken me up,
like… deadlines, for every single goals.
Sesungguhnya
agak repot juga menjalani research, at the same time, ngurusin bayi, dan
ngurusin badan. Hehehe. Tapi ngurusin badan berbanding lurus dengan bikin
research dan nguruin si Baymax, bayi yang batrenya maximal.
Sebelumnya
aku pernah bercerita tentang galau ASI yang kualami, itu salah satu tantangan
terbesar menjadi seorang mamasiswa (student mama). Some people may judge me
anything tentang diriku yang bisa dibilang gagal kasih ASI eksklusif. But…, I
try, I tried my best to give him… but, as my husband said, everyone have their
own condition, and I already tried my best *sob (I always become very
sentimental about this). Buat yang sukses, somehow, kalian membuatku iri
maksimal, kadang-kadang suka nyeri di hati setiap ngeliat ada yang ngepost
hasil pompa ASI yang berbotol-botol, berkulkas-kulkas, sorry kalo aku
menganggapnya pamer, dan suka mendadak bete seharian gara-gara lihat gambar
gitu. If you’re on my condition, you will know how it feels :)
Then,
belajar adalah prioritas utama buat semua pelajar, dari SD sampe S3 sekalipun.
Untungnya sekolah nggak kaya HP Samsung galaxy, sampe S6, ga kebayang bisa
botak aku kalo sekolah terus. But having a baby make studying feels like an
illegal activity, harus sembunyi-sembunyi, colong-colong waktu. Baru baca
jurnal bagian abstract belom kelar, si Baymax udah ngajak main. Kalo enggak,
kertasnya dipake mainan, kalo pake laptop, keyboardnya dipukul-pukul. Kapan
kelar mama baca jurnalnya, Baymaaaxx??
Si
Baymax sekarang sudah 10 bulan, mulai belajar berdiri dan jalan. Udah bisa main
sendiri sama mainannya, yang kata mertua anak laki-laki mainannya harus banyak.
So far mainannya sih dimainin dengan setengah bener. Seperti main bola
dilempar-dikejar, main mobil-mobilan digeser-geser, dan gitar kecil dipetik
senarnya… sampe copot. Hehehe…
Sekarang
juga mulai bisa makan sendiri, walaupun berantakan abis. Dikenalin MPASI pake
metode baby-led weaning, dianya sih seneng banget, bisa main sambil makan. Note
that it is more playing than eating. But it’s ok, yang penting dia mau makan
dengan fun. Soal porsi, memang sih nggak sebanyak disuapin (spoon-feeding) yang
masuk, karena lebih dari setengahnya dipake mainan, kecuali kalo dikasih
stroberi, habis bis! I mixed BLW and SF in weaning for my baby, conditionally.
Kadang-kadang males bikin bubur-buburan dan pingin ngajak makan bareng di meja
(si bayi pake high chair pastinya) ya pake BLW. Kalo lagi males beresin dan
agak buru-buru ya SF. Walaupun nggak selalu lancar, tapi K punya selera makan
yang cukup bagus akhir-akhir ini. Inilah bagian yang membuatku terhibur dari
galau ASI, he’s quite good on weaning and his development going very well
*cheers
OK,
karena sudah lama enggak nulis, pas kubaca lagi ke atas, kok ceritaku enggak
urut, bahasa berantakan, dan ngaco. Kadang iri juga sama mbak-mbak blogger
ngetop yang konsisten posting, bahasa dan cerita menarik, dan pastinya punya
banyak followers yang setia menanti ceritanya. I used to be very excited to
write back then, when I still using multiply, having many loyal readers who
become my real friends, getting feedback in every single post and interact with
them. But now, everything changing, life keep on going… even I don’t get many
readers like before, but one loyal reader still waiting for my stories… my beloved
husband *kiss.
Akhir
kata, I have to rush myself to progressing my research, make it my masterpiece!
And keep the baby healthy and happy. Keep my husband healthy and satisfy, too~
hahaha!
Greeting
from Kyoto
Spring
2015
The
Pink Cat
