GOOD NEWS!!!

"Data anda telah berhasil diselamatkan / direcovery, silahkan dicek / diambil,".

Sujud syukur
Terima kasih doanya yah teman-teman

Saatnya melanjutkan TA kembali
Nonton dorama lagi
Karaokean mp3 lagi
Ngeliatin FTISLAND lagi
hohoho...


YOSHH
I start a day with victory
motto ganbarimashou!!!

My Special Hard Disk

Hay hay!

Today was a very complicated day for me. Setelah tidur pagi-pagi, bangun juga harus pagi-pagi. Lalu kotak obat berwarna orange itu ketinggalan di rumah (sekaligus aku dimarahin mama). Lalu mau upload video ternyata internet mati (atau emang nggak direstui nih?). Dan yang paling parah, HD laptopku dinyatakan positif damaged. Oke, let me bold it, DAMAGED. Oh nooo!!!

Partisi C rusak. D (/MY WORKSPACE) masih bisa dibaca. Dan E (/MY PLAYBOX) is not accessible. Oh my oh my…*nangis guling-guling di lantai* padahal di dalamnya tersimpan bergiga-giga memori rekaman momen-momen manisku bersama keluarga dan teman-teman. Saat-saat senang, sedih, berjuang, sampai yang segeje-gejenya. Selain itu, puluhan giga dorama my adorable Kimura Takuya dan Mizushima Hiro, serta puluhan PV boyband Kokorean kecintaan dan lagu-lagu yang kudownload sendiri (FYI, memakan waktu 1 malam untuk mendownload satu album 70MB-an, dengan koneksi GPRS yang beresiko putus-nyambung). Dan… itu semua terancam hangus! Hilang begitu saja… Oke, emang sih, folder tugas akhir (TA)-ku masih bisa diselamatkan, masih ter-back up, at least revisian terakhirnya. Tapii… apakah aku bisa rela kehilangan isi kotak Pandora-ku itu?

Maka, dengan segala kepanikan yang diselimuti sedikit optimisme, aku dateng ke tempat servis. Pura-pura tegar menanyakan nasib HD-ku. Yah, jawabannya sudah jelas, nak… it’s damaged. Mau nangis rasanya. Tapi nangis nggak bakal menyelesaikan masalah apa-apa. Aku memohon alternative solusi, dan akhirnya… aku terdampar di sebuah tempat bernama TREKNOL, hard disk crisis center. Okeeeeey!!! I haven’t imagine that I ever be in such a place like this before!!! Telen dah semua ejekanmu sama temen-temen yang pernah bernasib sama sebelumnya, Pinku!!! Makanya jangan suka ngejekin oraaaaaanggg!!!

First step in would be your first impression to this place, bangunannya agak serem, lantai terasannya aja dari bangkai-bangkai hardisk malang yang terlihat melas *wow*. Lalu aku masuk ke ruangan depannya, (sok) malu-malu. Ketemu sama officernya. Terus aku kasihin kepingan hardisku yang terbungkus rapi oleh surat pengantar dari tempat serpis (isinya wanti-wanti biar nggak dibongkar, biar garansinya nggak void). “Saya cek dulu ya mbak,” kata mas-masnya. Dihubungkannya sama computer di front desk. Dia manggut-manggut. Aku deg-degan. “Wah, bad sector ya mbak. Kita usahakan bisa di back up deh data-datanya mbak,” OOOHHH!!! Bagaikan secercah cahaya di dalam gua yang masuk dari lubang selebar jarum… rasanya harapan itu menyusupi rongga sanubariku (BGM Canon in D – DEPAPEPE version).

“Hm… terus mbak, pembiayaannya gimana?” mendadak mas-nya membuyarkan lamunan indahku dengan suara baritonnya. AWK!!! Dan aku disodori deretan angka yang tersusun dalam tabel rapi. “Ini… hardisknya 320 giga, kerusakannya bad sector jadinya…” PAUSE. Mataku berakomodasi maksimal. “Tuju ratus dua puluh lima ribu,” OH YES! You’re really to the point, man!!! Dalam sekejap aku pun mematung. Mataku kedip-kedip bak boneka Susan. Rp725000. It cost me my throat!!! (dan suaraku mendadak hilang)

Panik dan bingung. Yeah, itulah biaya dari kelalaianku mem-back up data. Betapa malasnya aku selama ini, cuma buat ngopy ke CD/DVD/EXTHD apa sih susahnya? Cuma satu kata, MALAS! Aku terlalu menggampangkan segalanya tanpa memikirkan kemungkinan terburuknya, “Oh yes, my laptop is fine, what should I worry about??” telen sendiri tuh pil paitnya!!!

Oke, enough for blaming myself, pasrahkan sama yang diatas. Banyak-banyak doa. Dan jadikan ini pelajaran, don’t ever let your laziness lead you, never again!!!

Dari sini aku juga jadi berpikir, otak kita ini bagaikan hardisk dengan kapasitas super besar, yang (insya Allah) awet selama hidup kita, kalo dirawat dengan baik juga. Tapi, gimana nge-back up-nya ya kalau terjadi damage?

Otakku, walaupun prosesornya masih Pentium 1, tapi mungkin kapasitas hardisknya lebih dari 10000GB, yeah, though it will take hours to summon up even 1 new file, because it never be defragmented!!! Mungkin aja terselip. Atau nggak sengaja ke-delete?  Dan yang muncul hanyalah kilatan-kilatan singkat dari rekaman keseluruhan momennya, seperti saat kita mendengarkan lagu kenangan. Kadang hal yang ingin kita lupakan justru tersimpan rapi dalam memori secara otomatis dan hal-hal yang ingin kita simpan malah hilang tanpa tau harus dicari di folder yang mana dari keseluruhan memori otak kita. Oh,kenapa hari ini aku jadi sentimentil ya?

Hard disk ku, LILY, walaupun kamu nggak bisa diselamatkan lagi, dan mungkin kamu harus digantikan oleh yang baru, tapi please… tinggalkanlah memorimu untukku, that will always bond us together, forever… I will always missing you, Lily… I love you…*kiss Lily, and pray...*

Hope all of my precious files could be saved. Amin.

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picture credit to Oki Novriansyah
(http://oki-novriansyah.web.ugm.ac.id)
PS: that's not my Lily's picture, it's only for illustration

Oh yeah! Its a complicated morning! My hardisk seems to be damaged, and I now try to save my precious datas I haven't saved yet... *praying*

Diserang iri yang sedikit berlebihan... Feels like I just doing nothing while others already reach their dream... I want to be like them...

Belajar urban design itu seperti maen SIM CITY (^~^)v

Oh my Lily's hardiiiiisk!!! Kenapa di saat ku membutuhkanmu, sayang? *cry*

Oh yeah!! Nemu buku berkanal-kanal. Senang! For the sake of my TA, FOCUS FOCUS!!

Menikmati "Rasa Ruang"

Part of my final project.

Random photo collection.

Not all about the final project, interest and narcissism included! Hahaha...

Took place on Selokan Mataram Yogyakarta, from East Ring Road to West Ring Road part.


Thanks to my friends who kindly accompanied me doing the survey:
Dyah Lalita Widyanari
Misbachul Munir
Muhammad Nofri Fahrozi
Edwin Maulana
Kartini
Rabian Nazri
Muhammad Oktasena
Rully Putra Pratama

Enjoy the space (ha?)

Queen of Curcol

Aku tadi puas tidur, sekarang malah nggak bisa tidur. Iseng-iseng liatin QN curhatan temen-temen cosplayer di Jakarta yang pada pulang dari event cosplay Animax, isinya curcol semua *sigh*. Hehehe…

Aku dibilang Ratu Curcol sama temenku beberapa hari lalu, saking seringnya aku ngedumel sendiri tentang segala sesuatu sama dia. Selain itu juga sering banget nulis macem-macem di MP ini, terutama masalah cinta-cintaan. Hahaha!!! Yup, maybe since I become single, I wrote all my thoughts about it here. Bukan untuk apa-apa, hanya bagian dari pencarian jati diri (dan soul mate, of course).

Di posting terakhirku tentang cinta, Love Again, Love♥, aku pernah berjanji untuk enggak membuat teori cinta-cintaan lagi, yeah, all of it was craps, but that shows the real me, my thoughts, my experiences. Hal-hal yang kupikir, kualami, dan ingin kubagi. Bukan untuk diikuti, tapi diambil baiknya. Sekali lagi, ingat, teori yang dibuat oleh jomblo itu jangan 100% dipercaya (apalagi dilakuin), wong buat ngurus dirinya sendiri aja dia susah, kok pake bikin teori buat orang lain.

Barusan aku denger lagu Kenangan Terindah (SAMSONS), mendadak jadi pengen curcol beberapa hal. Warning! My romantic area included. Yang akan kutulis ini nggak ada hubungannya dengan lagu di atas kok, walaupun sempat terjadi beberapa kilatan flash back masa laluku dengan seseorang, tapi itu nggak berlangsung lama. Selanjutnya, aku kembali tenggelam dalam lamunan, ditemani lagu Indigo Girl (Watershed) dan After Love (FTISLAND).

What was happened to me this week? I shouted a lot of stupid words. Why? I don’t know exactly, but I will tell a bit of my secret, the 3rd question answer of tarot foretell about a month ago was about this story…

Saat itu aku sedang dekat dengan seseorang, orang yang baik banget, lucu dan menyenangkan. Dan mendadak aku, yang jadi tertutup setelah putus ini, menjadi lebih terbuka dan menjalani hari-hari yang seru bersama dia. Dan mendadak dia menghilang seperti angin musim semi. Dia nggak sms, nggak telepon, dan mendadak pamit dari FB. Awalnya nggak ada kabar selama 4 hari. Dan selama 4 hari itu juga aku nggak enak tidur, dan setiap bangun pagi, namanya berdenging di telingaku sampai membuatku pusing. Ke kampus pun penampilanku jadi kucel kayak orang kurang tidur dengan rambut awut-awutan, nggak mood make-up (not even put some powder) lengkap dengan mata panda alami. Hmm, rasanya seperti gejala orang jatuh cinta ya? I’m not too sure about that. Yang kerasa, sampai sekarang aku jengkel aja dengan dia, walaupun itu salahku sendiri sih.

Aku banyakan nggak jujurnya akhir-akhir ini jika bersama cowo. Aku jujur dalam bersikap, tapi aku nggak jujur mengungkapkan apa yang kurasakan. For my friend, yup, it was true, I hide my feelings and it’s only me who feel the pain. Bahkan sahabatku pernah bilang, “Sudahlah, kasih dia sedikit tanda kalau kamu perhatian, paling nggak supaya dia tau. Kalau dia nggak bisa baca juga, anggap dia sudah melewatkan kamu…,” YAP! DAN ITULAH YANG TERJADI.

Selang waktu, nggak ada kabar apa-apa dari si angin, dan aku mulai menata ritme hidup yang sempet berantakan setelah diterpa angin puyuh kaya gitu, kembali menjalani rutinitas. Aku bertemu orang-orang baru (dan lama), menikmati hobi, dan tetap menulis. Sampai suatu hari, dia muncul lagi di FB. Secara nggak sengaja, tiba-tiba dia update status. Wah, mulai eksis lagi dia ternyata. Iseng aku buka wall dan profilenya, and as I thought, dia sudah ada yang memperhatikan though it's just "it's complicated". Mendadak aku pengen teriak sekenceng-kencengnya, “Wuaaaaaa!!! What was I’ve done? Thinking of him?? OH, WHAT A STUPID AND FOOLISH ME!” *garuk garuk kepala*

Yah… bagaimana pun, itu bagian hidup yang pernah aku lalui, dan aku bersyukur pernah bertemu dia dan mendapat banyak pengalaman, banyak rasa yang sebelumnya sempat kubunuh. Dan akhirnya, aku harus bilang sama dia bahwa aku pernah perhatian sama dia, pernah merasa kangen sama dia, walaupun untuk jatuh cinta aku belum bisa yakin. Aku sempat marah juga sama dia, tapi dia nggak salah, dia pun berhak mencari cinta yang sesuai sama dia… we’re in the same journey but take different directions, right?

"Don’t force yourself
Don’t rush
Don’t try harder
Just let everything to take its natural course"

(Senna Hidetoshi to Hayama Minami, from Long Vacation)

…

From now on, I will set my heart free, be more honest to myself and others.

Oke, enough for curcol this morning… I kinda feel sleepy, lastly… (=.=)zzZZZ

Tema posting-posting hari ini didominasi sama yang dateng ke event Animax cosplay... Kapan di Jogja ada event keren kaya gituuu... Hiks..

Hay!! Yang hari ni pada ikut UM sukses yaa!! Moga-moga pada diterima ^^v ganbatte!

Diskusi dengan sahabat selalu menyenangkan, terutama karena bisa curcol. Sankyuu teman, kemarin juga bukan salahmu cuma akunya yang terlalu terbawa perasaan. Hehe.. Habis ini aku tetep curcolan sama kamu kok ^^v

Nggak ada ya ukuran 38,5? Rasanya ukuran kakiku kok nanggung...f(^o^)

People may come and leave... But only true love would stay...

What was I've done?? BAAAAKA!!! So silly and stupid me (>.<)/

It's Happy Line

Konnichiwa minna!
How’s life?

It’s me, again and again. Hehehe…

I’ve passed my bloody March 23 well, hmm, not too well actually. I’ll tell you that my blood test result went bad… The parasites inside my body grow doubled since the last test, and (the bad news is) there’s several new infections detected... Is that means my body turns weaker? Maybe. I am now easily got fatigue, catch a cold, more sensitive to several drugs that always make me suffered by itchiness… hiks. Whereas, I still believe there’s still a chance to be totally healed, and healthy. Oh, I miss my body’s condition previous…which could support all my activities well, along with my arrhythmic heartbeat.

Talk about life, beside my disease, there are many thing matters in my ordinary days.

Good news! There is a rumor that UGM graduation ceremony in August period would be held in July 2010. Oh yeah!!! It means… I could take my final test in MAY! To be realistic, I couldn’t finish my entire final project by the end of this month and take the final presentation in early April. THAT’S SO IMPOSSIBLE!!! My data set is still incomplete yet. The maps are also undone. And the worst is, I haven’t meet my lecturer even once for this late 1 month, he doesn’t answer my text messages or e-mail either (crying). Oh God, please give me more energy, courage and patience to finish it so soon. I somewhat bored being an old student in this campus, though it feels so fun to enjoy, hehehe… (for my kouhai/juniors, please do not follow my laziness… complete your practical study paper, finish your final project, graduate as soon as possible and live prosperously). OSH!

Mmm… and how is my love life going?

It went sucks. Hahaha…couple weeks ago, I’m being left by one of my friend, few weeks after he sent me love application letter. Huff… I somewhat confused of what he does. I don’t fix any requirements to be a lover. All you have to do is know me first, deeply. I am not easily understandable person. May I remind you, I AM AN UNSTANDARDED PERSON, and even my closest people couldn’t simply understand how I think. Sometimes I can be so silly, funny and very cheerful, but in the other day, you will meet me in a very bad attitude; ignorant, silent, gloomy, hot-blooded and too much thinking unnecessary things, etc etc. So, you should make sure that you really fall in love to me completely, or just my good side. Its okay if you’re not around me again, and then you finds a better person. I have no regret of knowing you...

I, recently, slowly become more selective to fall in love with a person. I enjoy making friends with many people, both boys and girls. Some boys leaving a good impression for me, but it don’t mean I could fall in love with him. I just enjoy where the fate flows… being friend, comfort each other then start loving. I don’t want to force my self again… to love, to comfort others.

Imagine I’m walking on the grass field, the sun shine on me, the wind blows softly thru my hair, the warmth covering my body and soul… I am now singing…

"Who am I living for?
The cloudy days pass me by.
This weakness, this pain:

Do I feel all of it, or just a little?
I drowned myself in memories, but it didn't help.
So I'll start living for today.
But even if I'm a bit lost, yeah, yeah

Before dawn, the twinkling stars vanished.
I wonder: are they really gone?
Or will they be back tomorrow?

Tomorrow never knows
It's Happy Line.

What should I believe in?
My life flies past me and I don't even know it.
No matter what the night brings,
Please, don't frown.

Everyone has happy faces and voices,
I wonder if I can see them.
But even if I can't laugh, yeah, yeah.
I've found my courage at last.
I saw your red eyes and I tried to laugh.

Tomorrow never knows
It's Happy Line.

I drowned myself in memories, but it didn't help.
So I'll start living for today.
But even if I'm a bit lost, yeah, yeah

Before dawn, the twinkling stars vanished.
I wonder: are they really gone?
Or will they be back tomorrow?

Tomorrow never knows
It's Happy Line"

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YUI
It’s Happy Line

Tidur pake masker... Aneh,ni masker wangi banget sih? Uhuk uhuk!!

FT.triple - Love Letter (러브 레터)

Related to my previous review... http://nekopinku.multiply.com/reviews/item/22

F.T. Island - I Hope

Yeah... I love this video.
Konsepnya biasa banget. Lucu, dan warnanya cheerfull.
Hongki, seperti biasa, terlibat cinta lokasi.
Jaejin, cupu banget, I prefer his appearance in FT Triple's Love Letter to this.
Minhwan, nampak ceria di balik drumnya.
Seunghyun, tambah kakkoi, walopun waktu pake celana capri 3/4 dia terlihat cantik.
The leader, Jonghoon, lebih kalem tapi tetep asik.

Enjoy the video!

Howah... kok ngantuk ya? (=.=)m

A Man's First Love + Only One Person

Rating:	★★★
Category:	Music
Genre:	Pop
Artist:	FT ISLAND

Yeah yeah, after I introduced you to their sub-group, FT Triple, now I will introduce you my new favorite Korean band, FT ISLAND (에프티 아일랜드/Five Treasure Island). After listened to their song carefully, watched their mvs, viewed their profile and discography, now, I declare that I am one of their fans. Hahahaha!!!

Behind their cute face, they have potential to become a great musicians. I love this new concept of Korean boyband; 5 boys, singing and playing music, though the mainstream Korean boyband is 5 boys, singing and dancing. But they don't dance, they play the music instrument just like a rock band.

Here's the 5 treasure boys:

Name: Choi Jonghoon (Korean : 최종훈)
Birthday: 1990, 7th March
Height: 178 cm.
Weight: 60 kg.
Education:Shindongshin Middle Information Industry High School (Korean : 신동신정보산업고등학교)
Hobby: Internet, Listening Music
Family: Parents

Name: Lee Hongki (Korean : 이홍기)
Birthday: 1990, 2nd March
Height: 176 cm.
Weight: 60 kg.
Education: Seongji High School (Korean : 성지고등학교)
Hobby: Singing, Listening Music, Playing Soccer & Game
Family: Parents & Younger Sister
Skill: Singing , Playing Soccer

Name: Lee Jaejin (Korean : 이재진)
Birthday: 1991, 17th December
Height: 177 cm.
Weight: 58 kg.
Education: Seonyoo High School (Korean : 선유고등학교)
Hobby: Internet Seaching, Questioning about music to the music specialist
Family: Parents & Elder Sister
Skill: Playing Bass
Family: Parents, Younger Brother
Skill: Playing Piano and Bass

Name: Song Seunghyun (Korean: 송승현)
Position: Guitar & Vocal
Birthdate: 08.21.1992
Height & Weight: 180cm & 60kg
Blood Type: O
Hobbies: Music + Acting
Family: Parents, Seunghyun, Younger brother
Other Skill: Rap
Nickname: Song Seungheon, 16 Dimensions.
Best Point:Dimple

Name: Choi Minhwan (Korean : 최민환)
Birthday: 1992, 11th November
Height: 171 cm.
Weight: 55 kg.
Education: Yanghwa Middle School (Korean :양화중학교)
Hobby: Internet, Listening Music
Skill: Playing Drums, Eating Chicken
Family: Parents & younger sister

Beside their music career, they have another works. Lately, Hongki (vocalist) is appear in the drama You're Beautiful and sang for the drama soundtrack.Minhwan (drummer) and Jaejin (bassist) also participated in acting works and take a role in drama and theater musical show.

Song Seung Hyun, in my opinion, is the most stylish personnel in this band. He appears in many fashion shows in Korea, and he really looks so good in catwalk. In FT Island, he also become the second vocalist who fill the rap part. That makes FT Island music sounds more interesting.

The leader, Jonghoon, the most charming person (for me), is very talented. He can play both piano and guitar, sing well, good acting and he also has a good posture (and face) to be a model. He and Seunghyun were runway models at the Seoul Fashion Week.

They're not just an ordinary Korean boy band, they also the most stylish band in Korea. FYI, the band appears in STYLE WAVE drama (also aired in Indosiar TV) episode #6.

Let's talk about their music.

After I listened to their song, I'm out with this impressions: "Awesome! They're music make me flashback to those classing Korean movies, you'll feel like watching Korean movie, the saddest part, and shed so much tears when listening their song," but I was wrong, they also play the different genres, cheerful and a bit naughty lyric in many variation of beat. They also add the rap part in almost every songs, and each member could sing well.

Ah, so much thing I could share to you about them, but I think it's enough for introduction ^^

Enjoy the video clip (for you, girls), I love it much. Jonghoon's figure looks so mature being a combat butler, saranghae...

Laptopku kamu kenapa sayaaaang? I need you...

Choi Jong Hoon saranghae... sambil liatin pv-pv ft island *fainted*

Tomorrow would be my bloody tuesday, wish me get the best result. Osh!!

Tomorrow would be my bloody tuesday, wish me get the best result. Osh!!

Kebanyakan mikir gak penting!

I feel like I miss them, and time the three of us were together; play and laugh together... My childhood memories slowly vanish... but I will always keep it in my heart. Miss you my bestfriends...

Saturday Wedding Parties

Today is an exhausting Saturday for me. You know why? I attended two wedding parties. One, in a day-time, my sister’s bestfriend’s sister’s wedding. Two, in night-time, my mother’s office colleague’s son’s wedding. Weew… I’m a bit tired of standing in my high heels pair (T_T)

Yup, akhir-akhir ini aku mulai menjadi Miss Kondangan. Akhir-akhir ini hampir setiap minggu ada kondangan. Sialnya, yang nikah udah seumur-umur aku. Dan percakapan seperti ini menjadi hal yang sangat biasa.

TEMAN PAPA/MAMA
Haiii… Apa kabar?

MAMA/PAPA
Baik baik…

AKU
(fokus memamah biak)

TEMAN PAPA/MAMA
(menepuk pundakku)

Mbak sekarang semester berapa?

AKU
(bingung, but I can handle it)

Ah, udah TA om/tante…

TEMAN PAPA/MAMA
Kapan nih mau nyusul nikah?

AKU
(santai)

Masih lama om/tante, ntar deh, lulus dulu…

TEMAN PAPA/MAMA
Tapi udah ada calonnya kaaaan?

(dengan pandangan menggoda)

AKU
(MELONGO)

Jleeebb!!! Akhir-akhir ini makin sering aja pertanyaan kaya gini mendarat di telingaku. Hmm… sering-sering aja deh nanyainnya, aku anggep doa, ku-amin-in semua! Hehehe…

Oke, dalam dunia kondangan, jam terbangku cukup tinggi. No, it’s not like in the movie, 27 Dresses, a women who become a bride’s maid for 27 weddings and still single. Oke, daftar pengalamanku soal acara pernikahan dimulai dari jadi patah (yang ngipasin manten) di umur 6-7 tahun, sekitar 2 atau 3 kali. Lalu jadi pager ayu (yang berdiri di depan pelaminan sambil bawa rangkaian melati selama 2 jam, biasanya ini diisi oleh muda-mudi yang belum menikah), waktu umurku 16 tahun sama 19 tahun, 2 kali aja cukup, katanya pamali kalo lebih dari 2 kali bisa seret jodoh, hahaha… ada-ada aja ya! Jadi yang njagain buku tamu juga pernah. Yang paling parah adalah jadi among tamu (bapak-ibu yang menyambut tamu di sepanjang jalan ke pelaminan) posisi ini biasanya diisi oleh bapak-bapak dan ibu-ibu berusia diatas 40 tahunan!!! Waktu itu aku nggantikan mamaku yang lagi ke luar kota. Oh nooo!!! Sampe dikira istri muda papaku!!! Wew….

Walaupun jam terbangku cukup tinggi untuk datang atau terlibat dalam prosesi pernikahan, satu-satunya yang belum kucicip adalah jadi yang nikah. Hahaha… itu bukan perkara gampang saudara-saudara. Nantilah, ada waktunya sendiri... Doakan saja.

Back to today’s topic, I feel so tired now. Wore two different dresses, put make-up twice and and (of course) wore high heeled shoes twice. OOOH… my legs… And, the worst thing was I, incidentally, met my ex crush(complicated story back then), and he was there with his girlfriend. Ahak ahak, I feel a little uneasy to smile, but I had to. Hahaha… I still don’t believe that sometimes love could be found in wedding ceremonies. No man’s single in wedding ceremonies!!

Ah! I’m sleepy by now… Oyasumi minna-san…

I give you me and my sister’s today photoshots (beware! narcissisms alert!)

 

DAY TIME

Me and my sister in red batik, amoeba motifs. Both me and my sister wore shoes in the same model (and color).

 

NIGHT TIME

Me with the tiger paper craft I bought in Pekan Kebudayaan Tionghoa, after attended the nite-time wedding party. So tired but, still, ready for photo shoot!

 

My sister wanna kiss the tiger.

Take a closer look...

She couldn't kiss this cute tiger, somehow...

(My sister is so cute, isn't she? ^^ *kiss her*)

 

Terharu. Mama bilang suka lasagna kare kentang-wortel buatanku... Padahal bikinnya ngawur. Hehehe...

Habis berburu frame kacamata di malioboro.. Murah murah! Oyeah!!

Oh Choi Jong Hoon, you really steal my attention...*nosebleed* FT ISLAND IS FOREVER!!!

Lasagna kare kentang-wortel ternyata masih layak kunyah, fyuuh... (ngelap keringet)

Hahaha... mbonceng temen, tau-tau ditinggal di tempat makan, bengong. Ternyata dia nggak kerasa, ngomong sendiri di motor, baru nyadar kalo aku nggak ada di boncengan.... Ternyata aku ringan ya!!! Hahahaha!!!

I Pray for Health...

Dear friends, how are you? Hope you always fine and healthy.

I has just checked calendar in my cell phone, the date March 23 was bolded. It is the date of my blood test planned, 10 weeks after the therapy ended (in January 9th). I’m quite nervous facing the blood test day. Yeah, it’s the last chance to know whether the drug therapy could cure my disease or not. If it is appears failed, I should repeat the therapy, with the same or different method.

I’m kinda nervous. I’m afraid if my body cannot be healed someway. My body seems to be uneasy lately, it’s like it rejected any medications. I do love my body, however it is, but sometimes I feel like I cannot do anything with this weak body. But I still believe there's a strong processor inside this weak casing... Hehehe...

Therefore, I have to keep this body health, at least until March 23. Reduce caffeine, do not force myself to do any physical exercises, eat and sleep well. Fight against the parasites inside!!!

Don’t give up!!!
諦めない!!!

 

If you don’t mind, I ask for your kindness to pray for me, to get a good result.
Thank you! (^o^)d

Re-listening YUI accoustic... Menemani perjalanan ke desa di pucuk gunung, hehe..

Gara-gara edit profile FB, kok baru muncul itu relationship statusnya, marai gosip. Hahahaha!!!

Inglorious Basterds gila!!! Aku rela ndobel deh!!!

Sunday... Sleepy day... Monday...Very sleepy day... Hahaha... Happy Monday, friends!! Still have a holiday tomorrow...

Saturday Out

Multipliers Saturday out with 2 of my multiply bestfriends, Ary-neechan and Sansan-oniichan.

We went to Ullen Sentalu Museum, located in Kaliurang (about 15Km in the north of Yogyakarta). This is the first time I met Ary in the real world, but I didn't feel clumsy to talk anything with her. As I thought, we could connected by talking about our hobby and interest. And this is (maybe) the fourth time I met Sansan, and as always we talk anything about Jejepunan world, which is both me and him ever involved in the same community (actually, my ex-boyfriend was in the same community with him, Hikaru).

After finished our tour in the museum, in the same location, we took many narcissisms photoshots.


More photos:
http://s20.photobucket.com/albums/b227/vapourrain/Ulen%20Sentalu%2013032010/

Here's our pictures!

Hujaaaan... di malam minggu... ahak ahak... Oh, it's already Sunday actually. Caffeine attacks me again!!!

Saturday hang out with mbak Ary dan mas Sansan... Long and fun conversation in warung ramen!!

Haru Haru (하루하루)

Rating:	★★★
Category:	Music
Genre:	Pop
Artist:	BIG BANG

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me Ah ah ah ah~

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out I miss you・
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye・

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely

As time passes by
It would be hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you

Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye


HANGUL

떠나가

Yeah, finally I realise, that I’m nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

Ah ah ah ah~

파도처럼 부숴진 내 맘
바람처럼 흔들리는 내 맘
연기처럼 사라진 내 사랑
문신처럼 지워지지 않아
한숨만 땅이 꺼지라 쉬죠
내 가슴속에 먼지만 쌓이죠 (say goodbye)

네가 없인 단 하루도 못 살 것만 같았던 나
생각과는 다르게도 그럭저럭 혼자 잘 살아
보고 싶다고 불러 봐도 넌 아무 대답 없잖아
헛된 기대 걸어 봐도 이젠 소용없잖아

네 옆에 있는 그 사람이 뭔지 혹시 널 울리진 않는지
그대 내가 보이긴 하는지 벌써 싹 다 잊었는지
걱정돼 다가가기조차 말을 걸 수조차 없어 애태우고
나 홀로 밤을 지새우죠 수백 번 지워내죠

돌아보지 말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회 없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아 볼만 해 그럭저럭 견뎌 낼만 해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야 돼 하루하루 무뎌져 가네

Oh, girl, I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye

길을 걷다 너와 나 우리 마주친다 해도
못 본 척 하고서 그대로 가던 길 가줘

자꾸만 옛 생각이 떠오르면 아마도
나도 몰래 그댈 찾아갈지도 몰라

넌 늘 그 사람과 행복하게 넌 늘 내가 다른 맘 안 먹게
넌 늘 작은 미련도 안 남게끔 잘 지내줘 나 보란 듯이

넌 늘 저 하늘같이 하얗게 뜬 구름과도 같이 새파랗게
넌 늘 그래 그렇게 웃어줘 아무 일 없듯이

돌아보지 말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지 말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회 없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아 볼만 해 그럭저럭 견뎌 낼만 해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야 돼 하루하루 무뎌져 가네

나를 떠나서 맘 편해지길 (나를 잊고서 살아가줘)
그 눈물은 다 마를테니 yeah (하루하루 지나면)

차라리 만나지 않았더라면 덜 아플 텐데 mm
영원히 함께 하자던 그 약속 이젠
추억에 묻어 두길 바래 baby 널 위해 기도해

돌아보지 말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지 말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회 없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아 볼만 해 그럭저럭 견뎌 낼만 해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야 돼 하루하루 무뎌져 가네

Oh, girl, I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh, my love, don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye


ROMANIZATION:

Tteonaga

YEAH FINALLY I REALIZED THAT I'M NOTHING WITHOUT YOU I WAS SO WRONG FORGIVE ME

Ah Ah Ah Ah -

[G.Dragon+TOP] Padocheoreom buswojin nae mam Baramcheoreom heundeullineun nae mam Yeongicheoreom sarajin nae sarang Munsincheoreom jiwojijiga anha Hansumman ttangi kkeojira swijyo Nae gaseumsogen meonjiman ssahijyo SAY GOODBYE

[G.Dragon RAP] YEAH Nega eobsin dan harudo mot salgeotman gatatdeon na Saenggakgwaneun dareugedo geureokjeoreok honja jal sara Bogosipdago bulleobwado neon amu daedabeobtjanha Heotdoen gidae georeobwado ijen soyongeobtjanha

[TOP RAP] Ne yeope inneun geu sarami mwonji hoksi neol ullijin annneunji Geudae naega boigin haneunji beolsseo ssak da ijeonneunji Geokjeongdwae dagagagijocha mareul geol su jocha eobseo aetaeugo Na hollo gin bameul jisaeujyo subaekbeon jiwonaejyo

[Chorus]

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae Haru haru Mudyeojyeogane

OH GIRL I CRY CRY YO MY ALL (SAY GOODBYE)

[Seung Ri + Dae Sung] Gireul geotda neowa na uri majuchindahaedo Mot boncheok hagoseo geudaero gadeongil gajwo Jakkuman yet saenggagi tteooreumyeon amado Nado mollae geudael chajagaljido molla

[G.Dragon] Neon neul geu saramgwa haengbokhage neon neul naega dareun mam an meokge Neon neul jageun miryeondo an namgekkeum jal jinaejwo na borandeusi

[TOP] Neon neul jeo haneulgachi hayake tteun gureumgwado gachi saeparake Neon neul geureoke useojwo amu il eopdeusi

[CHORUS]

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae Haru haru Mudyeojyeogane

[Dae Sung + Seung Ri] Nareul tteonaseo mam pyeonhaejigil (nareul itgoseo saragajwo) Geu nunmureun da mareulteni YEAH (haruharu jinamyeon)

[Tae Yang] Charari mannaji anhatdeoramyeon deol apeultende UM Yeongwonhi hamkkehajadeon geu yaksok ijen Chueoge mudeodugil barae baby neol wihae gidohae

[CHORUS]

Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae Haru haru Mudyeojyeogane

OH GIRL I CRY CRY YO MY ALL SAY GOODBYE BYE OH MY LOVE DON'T LIE LIE YO MY HEART SAY GOODBYE


Whoaaa... lagunya... sedih. Apalagi lihat PVnya, sedih lagi, tipikal korea sih, sedih-sedih. Lagunya yang up beat nggak menutup kesan sedihnya. Ahh... lagi-lagi kisah tentang mantan kekasih. Yang sudah pergi biarlah pergi, kita jalani saja hidup kita masing-masing. "Don't look back and leave. Don't find me again and live on. Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories"

Tapi aku paling suka kalimat ini "I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times" JLEEB... yeah, I've spent long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts about you a million times, so just live on your way, cause I choose a different way...

Wuaaa!!! Habis menggosongkan sepanci kacang merah gara-gara keasikan nonton AADC (lagi). Hahahaha!!! Lucu lho!!

Ullensentalu Museum

http://www.ullensentalu.com/profile.php
Yuk kesana besok!!

Hari ini capek, di rumah aja lah... Hohoho...

What are You Gonna Be, Planner?

Hay, it’s me again.

Nggak bosan kan kalian membaca tulisanku?  Hahaha… yeah, I promised myself not to make those worthless love theories anymore. Walaupun aku sendiri nggak yakin bisa mengendalikan pikiranku untuk berhenti menuliskan apa-apa yang kupikirkan tentang itu. Ya, cinta. Sudahlah, back to reality, apa yang sedang kulakukan ini setengahnya adalah hasil kegilaanku sendiri. Apa sih?

Meluluskan diri dari UGM di bulan Mei.

Oke, that’s my utopian plan.

I have many more utopian dreams inside my head, and I already know it will be worthless if I don’t put any efforts to reach them.

One day, I walked on my thesis object location, Selokan Mataram, alone by myself. I didn’t observe anything there. I just walk, and think. What will I do for it? Not just for the canal itself or people around it, but also for the world. What can I do?

Belajar perencanaan wilayah selama hampir 5 tahun lalu apa yang mau kulakukan? Menuruti ambisi pribadi untuk menjadi traveler? Hanya bawa otak kosongan aja? Aku cuma ngabis-ngabisin avtur buat terbang kemana-mana, tapi nggak ngapa-ngapain, oh, apa kata dunia?

Aku nggak bercita-cita untuk jadi planner yang hanya kerja kantoran atau passively sibuk menunggu bukaan lowongan CPNS. Banyak yang bisa kujadikan bekal untukku menuntaskan ambisi seraya memelihara kesehatan dunia ini. Terutama banyak hal yang aku ingat dan aku pelajari dari kerja praktekku di Desa Geluntung, Tabanan, Bali. Mungkin sekilas nampaknya pekerjaanku itu cuma ada bersenang-senang dan bermain bersama anak-anak aja, atau hanya membuat peta saja. Kerjaan planner nggak sesempit itu. Ilmu planning itu luas, saking luasnya sampai aku disuguhi dengan berbagai macam pilihan spesialisasi yang bisa didalami lagi. Kita bisa survive dimana saja!

Hmm, kesannya kok kayak promosi prodi ya? Hehehe…

Nggak nggak. Aku sedang memikirkan diriku sendiri kok.

Beberapa hari yang lalu aku main-main ke Amplaz, dah lama juga nggak ke pusat keramaian kayak gitu, janjian sama papa juga sih. Beliau sudah nunggu di Gramedia, maka kami (aku dan adikku pun menuju kesana). Aku baru jalan sampai di depan Indo Musik waktu adikku bilang, “Sik sik (sebenta sebentar) cik, itu ada anak-anak Greenpeace nggak?” dan dengan mata rabun parah gini, aku memaksakan akomodasi mataku untuk melihat sekitar 30 meter di seberang sana. Waow, ada, beberapa pemuda berbaju hijau stabilo itu. Kami pun mengatur strategi untuk menerobos masuk ke Gramedia dengan aman, “Yo, pura-pura nggak tau aja lah, pura-pura nggak cinta lingkungan,” hahaha… kalo ketahuan aku ngomong kaya gini, pasti Bli Agung (coordinator kerja praktekku) nggak setuju banget deh.

 

Sharing with Agus Wes, Greenpeace activist, member of Rainbow Warrior

Bukannya aku nggak cinta lingkungan beneran ya… sumpah. Dan aku juga banyak bertemu dan sharing dengan aktivis-aktivis lingkungan selama kerja praktek. Dan aku sadar kalo masalah itu makin menumpuk saja seiring juga dengan masalah-masalah kemanusiaan yang terjadi. Terus mau gimana? Demo ke pemerintah? Jelas nggak akan menyelesaikan masalah! Yang ada juga malah nambah sampah dimana-mana, bekas demo. Aksi mogok makan, minum, bicara, topo pendem? Halah, kaya orang kurang kerjaan aja. Masih banyak kok yang bisa dilakukan.

Dan aku sedang memikirkan apa yang bisa kulakukan. Jujur, aku nggak berani ngomong tanpa ilmu dan di luar kapasitasku, jadi aku nggak bakalan berani demo. Dan kondisi kesehatanku yang sering nggak bisa diajak kompromi sama otak ini jelas nggak mungkin mengijinkan aku buat mogok makan dan minum, buat mogok bicara ah…selama masih bisa update status di hp sih itu sama aja bohong, apalagi topo pendem duh ada waktunya kok buat itu.

Aku melihat kebanyakan orang yang bener-bener memelihara lingkungan itu nggak pernah banyak ngomong besar kayak aku gini. Mereka melakukan hal-hal dari yang paling dekat dan sederhana. Sampai aku terheran-heran, Bli Agung itu dari bertahun-tahun bikin proyek ini-itu di desanya, adaaaaa aja. Mulai dari ngecat rumahnya pakai bahan alami, bikin pemanas air pakai sinar matari (bener-bener air yang dijemur), radio komunitas dengan tenaga surya, motor matic tenaga surya, dan lain-lain eksperimennya (yang kebanyakan sih berbasis solar cell juga). Itu baru contoh ramah lingkungannya aja.

 

Modified electric motorcycle, suryamukti e+bike

 

Making a simple distance measurement tool

 

Briefing before the trekking started

 

Urusan community development, segala macam kegiatan pernah diselenggarakan. Dari kumpul bocah, gathering, kursus/pelatihan computer dan bahasa asing, sampai pertunjukan seni. Semuanya untuk memajukan masyarakat sekitarnya.

Bengong aku. Nggak tau gimana harus mingkem lagi. Beliau memang hebat... the real architecture and more.. seniman, environmentalist, advocator, apa lagi? Mengajak masyarakat untuk berkembang bersama, melestarikan alam dengan budaya masyarakatnya.

 

Being more adventurous and sociable; walking around the fields, woods and village with kids

 

Playing a mud war with village kids in the ricefield, could our children experience this too in the future??

Suatu hari mamaku bilang, “Coba kamu kembangkan wilayah sini mbak,” dan dengan pesimis dan less enthusiasm aku menjawab, “Wah, sulit,” why it so difficult for me? Aku nge-judge duluan bahwa masyarakat sini kurang bisa diajak berkembang. Mendingan aku hijrah ke luar kota atau maalh ke luar negri sekalian deh. Hey!!! Wake up, tugas sebagai planner adalah membuat mereka bersemangat mbangun desa (seperti judul serial di TVRI yang terkenal itu). Gimana mereka mau antusias mbangun desa kalo akunya aja males-malesan gini.

Banyak yang bisa dikembangkan, banyak juga yang harus dilestarikan; cagar budaya, alam. Semua akan jadi tanggung jawab kita. Masa kita membangun negri orang lain sementara orang luar membangun negri kita??

Ambisi dan nasionalisme dalam diriku mulai berperang nih.

Awalnya aku berniat belajar planning adalah membuat kawasan wisata, but since I got only C+ on Tourism Planning subject, cita-cita itu pun kukandaskan!! Entah kenapa, walaupun aku bukanlah seorang environmentalist, bukan orang yang cinta-cinta banget sama lingkungan (masih tidur pake AC dan belum melaksanakan 3R secara maksimal), tapi aku ingin bisa menjadi environmental planner. Aku bisa membangun kawasan yang profit oriented, tapi nggak lupa sama lingkungan, kesesuaian lahannya. Dan aku tau, di depan sana, stake holders nggak akan seringan itu untuk kuhadapi. Aku harus lebih banyak belajar. Nggak hanya teori, technically, tapi juga soft skill, berhubungan dengan masyarakat dan lingkungan. Dalam agamaku juga sudah diajarkan untuk berhubungan baik selain dengan Tuhan juga dengan sesama manusia dan lingkungan.

Pertanyaanku, apakah aku harus menjadi environmentalist untuk menjadi seorang environmental planner?

Dan hal yang kupelajari, “We cannot see the future but we can make plans for the future,”

 

This post is dedicated to :

Bli Agung Putradhyana,

my housemates NGP Diah Padmarani & Danar Wiyoso,

my friends in Geluntung village, 

my bestfriends Abdul Jabar & Kartini,

and also for MY FUTURE...

 

"Always respect nature and culture for a better future…"

 

FOR THE FUTURE
将来 の ため に

FOR LIFE!!!
生活 の ため に!!!

Hari ini males banget. Padahal bukan hari senin. Nggak ngantuk, tapi males ngapa-ngapain. Gimana nasib TA-mu, pus..? Hehehehe...

Is that an excuse to yourself?? I still haven't found what you mean, are you start to ignore me?(=.=)/

Hujan yang seperti ini selalu membuatku mengingat seseorang, yang minta ditabrak kereta api waktu berpisah denganku 2,5 tahun lalu. Hehe, nyatanya kamu bisa kan menjalani hidup dan bahagia tanpa aku?

Untuk jujur nggak mesti frontal, harus berani hadapi diri sendiri dulu... Ganbatte!!

Tadi malem ke syukuran nikahan temen... hohoho... lagi-lagi... who's next?

Love Again, Love♥

“Kamu pernah bilang kalo cinta dan relationship itu beda kapasitasnya,
dan menurutku kalimatmu itu keren!”

Itu kata seorang temanku dalam sebuah conversation di YM beberapa hari lalu. Hmm.. aku pikir lagi. HAA?? Keren? Dari mananya?

I’m still haven’t found which part he could say it cool.

Cinta. Kata dengan efek terdahsyat setelah kangen dan sayang. Setelah putus cinta sekitar 7 bulan lalu, aku masih mencari apa itu yang orang sebut dengan cinta (dalam konteks hubungan antara perempuan dan laki-laki). Cinta apakah akan selalu diasosiasikan dengan relationship? Mungkin aku kebanyakan berpikir yang nggak penting-penting, tapi benar, menurutku cinta dan relationship itu kapasitasnya beda.

Aku pengen mencintai seseorang itu dengan tulus, tanpa harus ada tuntutan dari status “in a relationship” tersebut. Bukan, bukannya aku nggak mau in a relationship lagi. Aku hanya berpikir, saat seseorang sudah dalam “ikatan” yang nggak resmi itu, maka akan menjadi semakin banyak ekspektasi yang timbul akan hubungan tersebut. Dari aku, atau dari pasanganku.

Iya, ekspektasi. Ketika mencintai seseorang, tanpa ekspektasi berlebih, rasanya lebih smooth dan nggak ribet. Nggak akan ada pertanyaan “kamu kangen aku nggak?” atau “kamu masih sayang sama aku nggak sih?” huuff… capeeek deeh. Kalau seseorang sudah cinta, tanpa ditanya pasti akan bilang “aku kangen lho” atau “aku sayang sama kamu” dengan sendirinya, semuanya mengalir tulus.

Mungkin paradigma aku terhadap cinta dan relationship sekarang mulai bergeser. Jujur aja, ini pertama kali dalam hidupku menjomblo se-lama ini. Baru sekitar 7 bulanan sih. Tapi jika aku masih memakai paradigma lamaku, mungkin aku sudah punya pacar sekarang, dan entah setahun atau dua tahun lagi aku mungkin akan mengalami hal yang sama, bubar jalan!!!

Aku mulai memandang relationship bukan hubungan yang mudah untuk dijalani. Hubungan yang pakai perasaan itu berat, dan kalau belum siap, lebih baik jangan terburu-buru mengambil keputusan. Aku nggak tau kapan dan dengan siapa aku akan memulai lagi hubungan relationship itu. Entahlah. Ini tergantung takdir… timing dan person-nya. Tapi aku harap jika aku memulai lagi, itu adalah hubungan terbaik yang pernah kujalani, hubungan yang punya tujuan yang jelas.

Ini bukan soal komitmen, menurutku komitmen itu hanya ada di pernikahan. Tapi masalah bagaimana proses kami untuk saling mengenal masing-masing pribadi dan latar belakangnya. Aku nggak menetapkan spesifikasi tinggi-tinggi, yang penting compatible. Pribadinya, keluarganya, latar belakangnya, gaya hidupnya, tujuan dan cita-citanya, semuanya bisa selaras.
Kaya tumbu oleh tutup lah!

Menjalani hubungan pun nggak harus terlalu terlalu kaku pada pakem pacaran, mesra-mesraan aja. Aku lebih ingin berbagi dengan seseorang yang bisa “berperan” menjadi kekasih, sahabat, bahkan kakak. Bisa diajak bersenang-senang maupun bermellow-mellow, bercanda gila maupun ngobrol serius tentang masa depan dunia, dan (terutama) menyukai baik sisi baik maupun sisi jelekku yang nggak standar dan devilish ini. Hahahah…

Entahlah, once more, bukannya aku sinis dan trauma nggak mau menjalani relationship lagi, tapi yaaa… itu apa, cinta dan relationship itu kapasitasnya beda. Otak (atau hati)ku belum sanggup kayanya menampung kapasitas itu, prosesorku masih belum pentium nih. Siapa yang mau (dan bisa) meng-upgrade-nya?

“Even a queen needs a man to be care of her...
You can take care of me, aren't you?”

(Kwang Ja Rak, from Invicible Lee Pyung Gang)

Munafik kalo aku nggak pengen punya kekasih. Kalo ditanya pengen, pengen banget. Hmm, aku tidak mengasosiasikan diriku sebagai “ratu” seperti di atas lho, masih terlalu jauh buat aku lah. Tapi sehebat-hebatnya seorang perempuan, pada dasarnya, pasti tetap butuh seorang pria. Begitu juga sebaliknya (mungkin). Se-happy-happy-nya aku hidup menjomblo hina gini, pasti ngiler juga liat yang pada pacaran. Apalagi kalo malem mingguan, aku geje, cuma jadi obat nyamuk bakar, ndepis di pojokan dan berasap… hahahaha, old joke.

Anything would happen, I still believe that there is a man who wait for my love.
Seseorang yang bisa “mengalahkan” aku dan membuatku nyaman bersama dia.
I don’t wanna force myself to make it, just take it slow, let it flow, naturally.
If there’s still the same feeling, let’s start loving…



왜, 넌 모르니
넌 날 모르니
널 원하는 내 맘 모두 다 가져가줘
...
Love, 내게 와. 넌, like this.
So Love, 기다린 너란
True love, 다가와 넌 like this.
One Love, 넌 내게 넌 내게로

Why, don't you understand me, don't you know
I want for you to have my heart, completely all of it
...
LOVE, come with me, you like this
SO LOVE, I'll wait for you completely,
TRUE LOVE, come to me like this
ONE LOVE, you and me, you and me together

(Love Like This - SS501)

Hope this will be my last note about love, I kinda tired of making all of those stupid craps and worthless theories, hahaha…

But

Could I be stopped?

Let’s see…


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Picture credit to Ilma "late braking" Az-zahra
(http://latebraking.awardspace.co.uk/)

I don't want to make it, I want to take it slow, let it flow, naturally. If there's still a chance, lets love again...(smiling)

"Even a queen needs a man to be care of her, you can take care of me, aren't you?" (Kwang Ja Rak, from Invicible Lee Pyung Gang)